álainn hijabi: SZulaikha

assalamualaikum, readers(:  Heartbreaks. Confirm you all bored of this again and again right? Just this time round okay? 2016, will be just a new page and new things I learn or places I went. These days, I am the heartbreaker one. I refused to let any man in. Their enthusiasm in knowing me does not interest me anymore. My excuse is busy. Honestly, I am afraid. To take that one step. I cannot imagine myself being in a relationship after so many years being single. I am afraid that my heart cannot take any more heartbreaks, cheating and whatnot. I am afraid if I cannot be that awesome girlfriend. I am afraid that when problems arise, I will be running away or he left me. I am afraid to go through another day missing them. When I am in love, I will be that hopelessly in love. Or are we all are??? Dated a few times and then, when they said, "lets go another level." It cringes me. I asked for more time. But how long more? I asked myself. They cannot wait for me for th...

assalamualaikum, readers.  It will be 2016 soon and I have promised myself that 2016 will be a year that I do good and new things. Technically, I played around for a year this year. At the same time, I gained some new knowledge and went on to a place I never been before. First time, spending my Raya at Perth, away from home, flight delayed and eventually managed to stay in perth for 3 days only but it's okay. I will come back next year! And the bestest thing that happened to me was my first umrah. I kind of regret that I didn't do much of ibadah when I was over there. Honestly, I miss Madinah & Makkah so much. I love the routine we had. The times when we had to go after our solat prayers. Our visiting. The times when I saw Ka'abah right in front of my eyes. Doing my tawaf. Nak lagi. Hiked up to Jabal Nur. And then, hearing the pegawai's stories especially when she said, "the best time to go is when last week of fasting month, going to raya time." S...

assalamualaikum, readers. Last Saturday, my good friend from primary school got married. She only did a small ceremony just a nikah at her place. She whatsapp-ed me two weeks ago. How time flies! We've been friends for 14 years and alhamdulilah, jodoh dia dah sampai dah. I was honoured to be able to go to her nikah. May allah bless your marriage, sayang!  Honestly, time is really going fast. My juniors are getting engaged. The young ones are talking about HDB flats and future wedding. And, I still want to talk about the old times. I still want to talk about the things we used to have. Am I the only one who wants to travel back to the time machine? Of course, I want to get married too but it seems that traveling plans has taken over that place for now. I haven't travel solo yet you know! With an increasing numbers of friends that got engaged, married and have plans for them, of course, I will be lying if I said, "oh, it does not bother me at all!" but I don...

assalamualaikum, readers! I don't know what topic to blog. so this is what I shall blog! hehehe. I just remembered a happy news. will blog about it soon!  1. Waking Up before my alarm goes off.  - Especially 5 minutes before it goes off. Like come onnnnn??!   5 minute lagi! If I am too tired, I will sleep back. If not, I will just wake up. 2. Fold my clothes after washing them.  - Totally hate it a lot. thus, I tend to procrastinate till it will become a mountain. HAHAHA! 3. I hate seeing things with many holes. LIKEEEEE EWWWW.  - will give me headache and this urge to vomit.  4. Hate seeing dead birds at pavement. - I can cry. Seeing them lying on the floor just like that.  5. When people eat and they do not clear up after that. -  Especially at home. Urghhh!  6. Going a trip with people who are selfish, thinks about "duit-tak-cukup-all-the-time" and kedekut! - I will be moody all the time and that ...