álainn hijabi: SZulaikha

assalamualaikum, readers. :)  I will be releasing off day currently volume per volume now and then cause I got inspired by a local blogger, so check her blog out. You will love her as much as I do, Wolvestruckwanders R E A D I N G Larger Than Life by Adele Parks. Taught me how one can be in love with someone for years, truthful to one but in the end, if one is no longer interested, no matter what you do or even being in self-denial, one can nver be the same again. And, do not trust your partner if you are working in the same industry or competitors. Either, you have each others back or just do your thing.  Summary of my favourite part: "Georgina thought Hugh will congratulate her when she won the pitch for a car ad but then, little did she knew, Hugh was her competitor. He told the panel of judges that Georgina looked at his pitch and proposals at home since both of them are in a relationship and stays together. The truth is Georgina had no idea at a...

Follow my blog with Bloglovin Peace be upon you, readers.  I want to share with you readers about an app. Online dating app. I am not a guru or master in this. I am just user of the app. Singles and people in relationships are in this too. Why I decided to blog about this? Because it is time for me to share with you my views about this. Like what people say, "you don't know what it is until you try." I do not tell people at first I used this app to find love. I do not tell people that I have guys hitting up on me asking me for meet ups and numbers. I do not tell people that I am so desperate for love that I am looking for it online.  I started using this app in 2013. 3 years now. Have I uninstall it for once? I did. Reinstall again? I did. And, now, I half fully understand that online dating app does not mean you will get a boyfriend in an instant. It still needs time to work out. From saying hi in the app, to whatsapp and finally meeting them in person ...

assalamualaikum, readers! I faced a lot of things these days on my own. I am so used to swallow it all in by myself only if I cannot hold it in then, I will text my best friend or close friends. Only for that one matter only. The one that I think or feel, is important.  Today, I shall blogged about closure. 2nd June, I received a news in perth, my beloved uncle saide passed away. We told him that we were coming for raya this year before his condition got worst. He said to us, "I will be waiting." So, we were honestly excited because we wanted to spend as many time as we could. However, Allah has his plans. Allah loves him more. Alhamdulilah, all went smoothly. When I got the news, I was grasping with another news of someone dearly who has passed away too. She passed away first in the morning, followed by Uncle Saide, at 4pm. Even still, it was my birthweek and initially, wanted to celebrate it but when all of this happens, I am at loss for words,  Back to the...

assalamualaikum, readers.  Its's Ramadhan. Soon, it will be end of Ramadhan. I admit I've not been a good Muslim. I've not been doing what I've been asked to do. I miss reading the Quran and I miss doing every single terawih. I am supposed to treat this like my last ramadhan. So much I want to experience another Ramadhan next year, it scares me especially seeing my loved ones passed away. It scares me that death is near and I am not ready yet. Anytime. I am afraid, too afraid. Overthinking kills me so badly. I am scared that I won't get to do the things I wanna do. I didn't get to pray anymore like I used to. I have so many sins that I am desperately want to get rid of it. The feeling of it is too strong. I am not doing anything to make it right. I felt bad and guilty for not doing my duties as a muslim. I felt bad and guilty for staying awake and not reading my quran. Not doing things that are more beneficial  for the hereafter. I was busy going after th...

assalamualaikum, readers(:  Soon, it will be 12 midnight. I always stay up so that I get to wish my dear self a good happy birthday wish. Soon, this girl who grows up will soon turn 23 years old. By right, she has already graduated from polytechnic. She will have a stable job and can provide for her parents. She will no longer ask money from anyone. She already knows what she wants to do and set out doing it now.  But, the truth is she has not graduated yet. She failed her modules and she had to repeat a semester. She is still working part-time job and still unable to provide for her parents. She still has no idea what to do with her life.  Well, its true what it has been written in Al-Quran. You can plan as many as you want but in the end, the one who make it true is Allah. No one else but Allah. I wanted to celebrate my birthweek but two of my dear ones passed away. One of them is my uncle's mom and another is my uncle in perth, Uncle Saide. It reminds me n...

assalamualaikum, readers (:  How do you cope with the feelings of missing someone greatly but he isn't there anymore? How do you cope with the feelings of longing when the person isn't there anymore? I want to forget him but the thought of him and then, remembering him how he makes me happy and makes an effort in everything he does in order to show me that I can trust him. It has been over. Long ago. 2 years or a year? I don't know but it felt that it was over so long ago. I used to keep our conversations, screenshot them and read it when I miss him. But, I deleted them cause it was unhealthy. Why am I looking at the conversations when he isn''t missing me? Why am I still clinging on to the hope that he will come back for me one day? I love pick up lines. I really do. And, he will make an effort for that and he will send me texts like "are you awakeee? I bet you look like an angel when you wake up." Instantly, it made me smile even though, I didn...

assalamualaikum, readers.  Before this, I wanted so many relationship goals but when I went to umrah, I've seen many relationship goals, halal ones. For example, when we are doing the tawaf, the wife is allowed to hold on to the husband's ihram because cannot hold hands or any other body parts, batal air sembahyang. Another one, when you are about to have dinner, and your husband reminds you to baca doa first before eating, it is just so cuteee. HAHAHA.  Even though, I am single now and I believe Allah created us in pairs so I decided to type a letter for my future husband. When I get married one day, I will tell him about this. HEHEHE. (Doakan!) Dear Future Husband, Probably I've met you somewhere but I couldn't remember. Probably we are friends or just strangers, I don't know. Either which I am glad I met you and marry you. So much I wished that you will look like my favourite actor(s), you are much better than them. Yes, them! HAHAHA. You make ...