álainn hijabi: SZulaikha

assalamualaikum, readers! Can you believe it again? I am going to take the final exam. The third time now. Thus, study week this week, and my exam is on monday and I am done. Pray for me okay?  Back to the topic! It is small. You know one person and their friends can be your colleague, your primary/secondary school friend, someone you used to date, your exes and so forth. This happened recently.  I got two things to share with you. First thing is when back then, when I just trying out okcupid, I went on a date with a man. A man who I find rude and he is still the same. That one flaw of him that got me an excuse not to contact him anymore. 4 years down the road, he is in a relationship with my current working colleague. I was shocked. No, she does not know and does not need to know that fact. They are in love and I am happy for them.  Another thing is just 30 minutes ago, I was scrolling my instagram and saw a picture of a lady who got engaged just now. I ...

assalamualaikum, readers. This is something personal but I need to let it out. The thing  I am talking about is a house the one I stayed over in Perth from when I was young till now. It is not something haunted, no worries. It is one of my biggest assets in my life that I valued the most. No, I am not rich to the extent till I own a property but it is kind of a place that I always stay whenever I am in Perth. Oh anyways, I am not rich with money yet but I am rich with love. HAHAHA.  Back to my story. I literally grew up in that house. My playground will be the laundry hanger at the backyard which actually turns round and round. I will hold on to it and keep on going round and round. The one who will pushed and carried me up was my late grandad, arwah uncle saide's father-in-law.  I am going to miss every inch of the house. Especially the porch, the narrow pathway in the house, the living room with my favourite chairs that automatically make me feel warm and I...

assalamualaikum, readers(:  Heartbreaks. Confirm you all bored of this again and again right? Just this time round okay? 2016, will be just a new page and new things I learn or places I went. These days, I am the heartbreaker one. I refused to let any man in. Their enthusiasm in knowing me does not interest me anymore. My excuse is busy. Honestly, I am afraid. To take that one step. I cannot imagine myself being in a relationship after so many years being single. I am afraid that my heart cannot take any more heartbreaks, cheating and whatnot. I am afraid if I cannot be that awesome girlfriend. I am afraid that when problems arise, I will be running away or he left me. I am afraid to go through another day missing them. When I am in love, I will be that hopelessly in love. Or are we all are??? Dated a few times and then, when they said, "lets go another level." It cringes me. I asked for more time. But how long more? I asked myself. They cannot wait for me for th...

assalamualaikum, readers.  It will be 2016 soon and I have promised myself that 2016 will be a year that I do good and new things. Technically, I played around for a year this year. At the same time, I gained some new knowledge and went on to a place I never been before. First time, spending my Raya at Perth, away from home, flight delayed and eventually managed to stay in perth for 3 days only but it's okay. I will come back next year! And the bestest thing that happened to me was my first umrah. I kind of regret that I didn't do much of ibadah when I was over there. Honestly, I miss Madinah & Makkah so much. I love the routine we had. The times when we had to go after our solat prayers. Our visiting. The times when I saw Ka'abah right in front of my eyes. Doing my tawaf. Nak lagi. Hiked up to Jabal Nur. And then, hearing the pegawai's stories especially when she said, "the best time to go is when last week of fasting month, going to raya time." S...

assalamualaikum, readers. Last Saturday, my good friend from primary school got married. She only did a small ceremony just a nikah at her place. She whatsapp-ed me two weeks ago. How time flies! We've been friends for 14 years and alhamdulilah, jodoh dia dah sampai dah. I was honoured to be able to go to her nikah. May allah bless your marriage, sayang!  Honestly, time is really going fast. My juniors are getting engaged. The young ones are talking about HDB flats and future wedding. And, I still want to talk about the old times. I still want to talk about the things we used to have. Am I the only one who wants to travel back to the time machine? Of course, I want to get married too but it seems that traveling plans has taken over that place for now. I haven't travel solo yet you know! With an increasing numbers of friends that got engaged, married and have plans for them, of course, I will be lying if I said, "oh, it does not bother me at all!" but I don...

assalamualaikum, readers! I don't know what topic to blog. so this is what I shall blog! hehehe. I just remembered a happy news. will blog about it soon!  1. Waking Up before my alarm goes off.  - Especially 5 minutes before it goes off. Like come onnnnn??!   5 minute lagi! If I am too tired, I will sleep back. If not, I will just wake up. 2. Fold my clothes after washing them.  - Totally hate it a lot. thus, I tend to procrastinate till it will become a mountain. HAHAHA! 3. I hate seeing things with many holes. LIKEEEEE EWWWW.  - will give me headache and this urge to vomit.  4. Hate seeing dead birds at pavement. - I can cry. Seeing them lying on the floor just like that.  5. When people eat and they do not clear up after that. -  Especially at home. Urghhh!  6. Going a trip with people who are selfish, thinks about "duit-tak-cukup-all-the-time" and kedekut! - I will be moody all the time and that ...

assalamualaikum, readers!  Stubborn. That is me. Getting my heart broken over and over just because someone gave his attention and care to me. Just because his words were sweeter than others. Just because no one else did but him whom actually cares...but virtually. I kept telling myself no more. But I kept on liking those photos, swiping right and reply to their messages. Stubborn until to the same point again. I am tired. For real. I focused on one person and had hopes plus expectations. Viewed his profile so that I will know what he likes and dislikes. His photos so I can imagine my future with him. How foolish. Virtually in love....oh should I say, virtual love?? Initially, I wanted to take it slow but we are going slower than I actually expected. I waited for him to make the first move. I gave up. I made the first move and he laughed at me and said I was funny because obviously, he thought I was joking. I was so sure that he felt the same way as I do. I was so eager to...