álainn hijabi: SZulaikha

assalamualaikum, readers! I faced a lot of things these days on my own. I am so used to swallow it all in by myself only if I cannot hold it in then, I will text my best friend or close friends. Only for that one matter only. The one that I think or feel, is important.  Today, I shall blogged about closure. 2nd June, I received a news in perth, my beloved uncle saide passed away. We told him that we were coming for raya this year before his condition got worst. He said to us, "I will be waiting." So, we were honestly excited because we wanted to spend as many time as we could. However, Allah has his plans. Allah loves him more. Alhamdulilah, all went smoothly. When I got the news, I was grasping with another news of someone dearly who has passed away too. She passed away first in the morning, followed by Uncle Saide, at 4pm. Even still, it was my birthweek and initially, wanted to celebrate it but when all of this happens, I am at loss for words,  Back to the...

I did take a risk but I let it go too fast.  I gave a chance but I was busy listing out his bad side rather  than a good side. Left him hanging without saying goodbye.  Delete whatsapp and you know when that person makes me uncomfortable, I can feel it but I don't explain it to him what made me  uncomfortable. When I looked through the text messages,  I felt.... horrible.  Why I did not take time to know him? Why was I rushing? Last time, little things do not matter to me at all. When now, it matters, the other party does not take note.  in fact, they overlooked it and thus, making me feel upset.  because I treasured the little things and he don't .  I can teach him to appreciate them but why I gave up so fast? I can take other risks but why not this one? Why?? Is allah telling me that he is not the one? I am not sureee. On repeaaat~  LYRICS: She hides inside all day and sl...