Friday, September 09, 2016

Face The Reality.

Assalamualaikum, readers!

There are so much things to update. Sorry I stopped blogging for a while. Sorry for not updating. Sorry if you came by to visit but there wasn't any new post published.

I don't know where to start. Its 3am now. And I just finished watching a korean drama titled "Uncontrollable Fond". Cried so much. Meraung kind. As if I was the one acting it out.

Back to the topic.

The reason why my title is "Face The Reality" because I have been living in an imaginary world where everyone are nice and good people. I have been living in the past. I have been living in the the childhood moments where only I remember.

I couldn't accept the fact that everyone changed. Everyone. The ones who tried to protect me back then, left. The ones who took care of me then, grew old. The ones who loved me then, died. The ones who I looked up to then, changed.

Sad how I cried so much over the fact that it wasn't the way I wanted to be. I was...naive. I was innocent believing that everything and everyone will stay the same.

And this is why I need to face the reality that kita merancang, allah tentukan.

I lost so many people that I couldn't count no more. I am sure you faced the same thing too.

And I realized, I should stop. Stop living in the past. And face the reality. Get back up. Do what I want to do. Volunteer as much as I can. Sign up cooking classes and whatnot. Be happy paying bills and blessed cause I have a job. Be happy now and in the future.

And start believing again in myself and continue believing in allah too.

Thank you for reading!

I will come back for you! For sure!

Assalamualaikum, kalau tak jawab, dosa!
Kalau jawab, sayang!


Saturday, June 18, 2016

Life After Diploma.

assalamualaikum, readers. :)
I am still figuring it out. It sure to be sucks to be having a part-time job which I don't even know what will happen to me cause they didn't tell me what happened.

You know the lost feeling of not able to do something. When people ask me, "zu, what are you doing now?" I used to say, "still figuring it out. So staying home now and do a part time job." They will reply, " you mean the kids craft job? Why don't you be a teacher or pre school teacher?"
I thought of that too but my distraction level is the same as them. 5 minutes, I am out. In fact, faster than them. I get helpless easily. And fidgets a lot. (Maybe because too much of fidgets) hahahaha. Inside joke sorry!

And now, I say that I am taking a break. Surviving on the current job. If you have any one off event job, please email me at thank you. Need it a lot thanks.

Also, I am starting soon on the SIM production which starts officially on the 3rd week of july. Yes, looking forward to it. Hehehehe. Will fill you in the details once I start rehearsing. I am also trying hard on my side. Sending resumes and all. Gotta keep doing it. Just taking a small break before resuming it again.  May allah ease my affairs. Amin! 

Please pray for me okay? May I get a job that pays me good and also that I enjoy. The second one is important. Challenging but I enjoy doing it, okay?

Thank you for reading it. And may this ramadhan be a good month for all of you!

With love,
 SZulaikha. 

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Diploma Graduation 2016.

assalamualaikum, readers!

I have officially graduated from Republic Polytechnic with a Diploma!!  Alhamdulilah.
And here is a thank you post for everyone I am going to mention. Spare me for this post hor. Cause I have been waiting for graduation day since forever. Okay and here it is!

Thank you to:

1. Ayah & Ibu: 
Despite you not knowing the school system, what I studied and the modules I had to repeat, both of you still give me support even though you made fun of me sometimes. You were there ibu to tell me its okay when I saw 'F' on my result slip. You told me to be strong every time I failed. Thank you for that support ibu! Your hugs during the times I needed it made it all better!

For ayah, thank you for still believing in me! And giving me green light to do degree in the future. I know your desire to complete your studies but you couldn't due to financial reasons. Someday, Ayah, I will make that dream of yours come true! Meanwhile, lets make your other dream come true first! Bukan kahwin lagi satu la, pergi haji la. Mudah-mudahan allah setuju! 

2. Year 4(s)

I knew how shattered your hearts were when our batch graduated last year. I knew how hard the year was for us but we made it. We finally made it. Despite what people said about us, we finally graduated. Wipe your tears and keep on persevering. May this become a lesson and also motivation for you to succeed in life! all the best for NS(guys) and your future endeavours! 

3.  Pentas Karyawan

Be it the seniors or juniors batch, whoever you are, you've made my 4 years in school, worthwhile. All the productions and stage moments we shared, are deeply appreciated. They are some who have drifted apart and there are some that I am still in contact with. Still, I appreciate each presence with good or bad memories that comes together with it. I am glad that this is over and I realize that there are things that you sacrificed and it might not be worthwhile. And people do not appreciate your sacrifices at all. And to the juniors, thanks for being my kiddos that I love and adore. Thank you for the grad gift board(you know who you are). The mrt rides, the small talks we had, every single thing, zu will not forget! Thank you a million times! 

4. Friends, Mostly, my girlfriends! 

Without their support and motivation, I may not pull through the 4 years. Their constant care and reminder. Alhamdulilah for them. Thank you for being there for me all the time! Friends that always remind me that I have to graduate. Friends that become my sidekicks! :) their kind words through texts. them asking me about everything!

5. Happy Pills
We got closer due to one incident. And we got even closer after that. That kept my whatsapp busy. That can have more than 1 topic discussed at 1 time. That motivates me when I needed it. That I can hug and kiss without being embarrassed except for shahril! HAHAHA. That got me scored a big brother, elder sister, a twin plus 6 younger sisters. HAHAHA. always love you. always. fillah. 

Thus, this marks the end of my polytechnic education of 4 years. Finally, releasing this post! 

Official Graduation Stage Photos

Post-Graduation Photoshoot

till then,
thanks for reading it! 

with love, 

PS: Photos for the photoshoot are taken from Shariffah Nadia's Google Plus!