álainn hijabi: SZulaikha

assalamualaikum, readers!  Stubborn. That is me. Getting my heart broken over and over just because someone gave his attention and care to me. Just because his words were sweeter than others. Just because no one else did but him whom actually cares...but virtually. I kept telling myself no more. But I kept on liking those photos, swiping right and reply to their messages. Stubborn until to the same point again. I am tired. For real. I focused on one person and had hopes plus expectations. Viewed his profile so that I will know what he likes and dislikes. His photos so I can imagine my future with him. How foolish. Virtually in love....oh should I say, virtual love?? Initially, I wanted to take it slow but we are going slower than I actually expected. I waited for him to make the first move. I gave up. I made the first move and he laughed at me and said I was funny because obviously, he thought I was joking. I was so sure that he felt the same way as I do. I was so eager to...

No one understands that I just want to be with someone that I love who loves me back.  I feel like blogging again! remember about the wedding yesterday, which I blogged just now? Yeaaaah, the most dreadful reason why I refuse to go to wedding sometimes is because people will ask "when is your turn?" For goodness sake, I am 21 years old only. I have things to do. I want to do things I've planned out. My younger cousins were teasing me, "kak, bila kak nak kahwin? " chill laaaa, they thought getting married is easy. Akad nikah, register at ROM, dah sah kahwin. Not that easy broo. Maintaining a relationship is not even easy la. Marriage aside. Relationships. The saddest truth is that I am single. A good thing and a bad thing. Everyone seem to be in a relationship. Cousins and friends. Meeting them will start off with "so, how are you and him? " Talking about their problems that you wished you will be them instead on other hand, you don...