Virtual Love.
assalamualaikum, readers!
Stubborn. That is me. Getting my heart broken over and over just because someone gave his attention and care to me. Just because his words were sweeter than others. Just because no one else did but him whom actually cares...but virtually. I kept telling myself no more. But I kept on liking those photos, swiping right and reply to their messages. Stubborn until to the same point again. I am tired. For real. I focused on one person and had hopes plus expectations. Viewed his profile so that I will know what he likes and dislikes. His photos so I can imagine my future with him. How foolish. Virtually in love....oh should I say, virtual love??
Initially, I wanted to take it slow but
we are going slower than I actually expected. I waited for him to make the
first move. I gave up. I made the first move and he laughed at me and said I
was funny because obviously, he thought I was joking. I was so sure that he felt the same way as I do. I was so eager to
see him on my show day. Cause I got a production last week! I was expecting him.
But, it came crashing down. He….was busy and he couldn't make it. He booked the ticket but he couldn't be there. I expected that already. Cause I know he is workaholic. He is one
workaholic man. But, I kept on hoping that he will turn up. He will….for me. How foolish I am to think
that way? He won’t be coming. He won’t get to see me. See the person I had
trust in. His empty words.
I dislike the fact he remembered every single
thing about me. I was comfortable with him. But, when the dry conversation
started, the usual questions came up, I told myself,” this is a cycle.” I went
through this before. I left because it was stagnant. Now, with him, it happens
again.
It was nice to know he actually love listening to me, enjoyed every conversation with me but we were
too busy to make time for each other. Text messages were convenient for us. But
it ruined us too. I can no longer rely on my imagination anymore.
It’s time to stop falling in
love with someone in the virtual world, someone that I cannot reach out to,
someone that I can only rely on his photos and finally, someone that made me
forget about him…slowly.
Hopefully, this time I won't go back to this kind of love. My wish is to just meet someone physically, fall in love with face-to-face kind of thing, and then text. Insha'allah! One day!
Pray for me! Amin!
And as for him, be a man that you wanted to be. We will meet in the future. By that time, we will be ready for another step or maybe we will be happy with each other's partners. :)
Goodbye, Virtual Love!
Goodbye, Virtual Love!
Love,
Siti Zulaikha.
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